ITEMS TO BRING WITH YOU TO A STUDY LONG OR SHORT

Everything has to have the ingredients listed on the label or they'll take them.Aloe is usually restricted. Ask them just to make sure.

• Tooth brush (some already have them)
• non whitening tooth paste (toms is safe)
• soap bar or liquid
• blow dryer, flat iron
• socks (its extremely cold)
• blankets (optional)
• things to keep you busy (cards, laptop, movies, gaming system)
• notebook, pens
• bring a 2 week supply of clothes if your there for a month, they'll usually do your laundry if you're there longer than 10 days
• no exfoliators (clarisonic, apricot scrub, shower gloves)
• ear buds (people snore, and can be inconsiderate)
• personal supplies like razors, deodorant, pads/tampons are ok.no douche 

A couple things i didn't mention were to take your temperature and pregnancy test.Drink mainly water a weeks before.

-MAKE SURE TO NOT BRING CONTRABAND. Even on accident.When your doing a check in, they check EVERYTHING especially depending where you go. I made the mistake of bringing allergy medicine and almost got kicked out. I told them i haven't used it in 6 months. It also wasn't in my system.So no type of medicine not even oragel. 

Can i change this season from sucking?

Fall/Autumn/Winter are my favorite seasons,times of year..,but for me, It's always so difficult.It's not a natural occurrence .It seems as if life just comes crashing down on me,all within a matter of weeks. Like finances,relationships,situations,wants....There are things i want to do,but i feel stuck,and in a rut.Everything is being timed and im hoping my life is never like this again.It has been 2 years of what seem like living hell.I feel like once i get out of this ill be resentful since i've been blamed,judged,and mistreated because i was at the mercy of others. Im too nice though.I also get over things easy.I pray daily that this ends soon and i can be happy again,uninterrupted.

So much has been going on ive been neglecting my posts on here

As many of you know i was having a lot of drama,now im just trying to get this whole city situation figured out.I honestly don't know where im going to live now.I was so set on L.A. Now i don't know if i want to go anymore.Im going this week to figure things out and have to figure things out and go with my gut

Sunday weigh in

This morning i woke up,did my typical routine and weighed myself,i am now 188.4 !!!! now of course that was water weight and whatever else but it made me feel better about falling behind. I feel more confident knowing that maybe i can just lose 5 lbs this week instead of 8,and then 5 next week instead 4 and i will be back on track.Im not going to hold off on eating because when i go too long with out it,i'll just indulge,but i am going to cut down fat portions and not work out until wednesday,so that my levels wont be off for the out patient.I have one more check in next month,so i don't really have many excuses.So here is the chart:


Sunday 7/10  i weight 195

wednesday 7/13 goal is 193 (actual weigh in #193)

goal for saturday july 16 is 190


Sunday 17 i should weigh in at 190 (actual #)

wednesday 7/20 goal is 188
saturday  7/23 goal is 186



Sunday 7/24 i should weigh in at 186 ACTUAL # is 188.4

wednesday 7-27 goal is 184

saturday 7/30 goal is 182

late saturday weigh in

I decided to come back home today.I was going to stay until next wednesday because i have out patients but i didn't want to and have been neglecting my channel a bit because i was in the study since wednesday and only had one prerecorded video that was scheduled.The study was pretty healthy and low fat.I actually gained 2 lbs last week and lost it,i haven't had any exercise and haven't been eating well but the study helped me regulate it.

So currently im at 190.Not going to lie.Im a bit disappointed that i've fallen off track,im supposed to weigh in at 186,i also can't do strenuous exercises so everything very light,to get back on track i would have to eat very lean and raw then work out before bed.8 lbs by next saturday... days?ok.i just want to be in the early 180s

im currently in dallas for a study

Hey..so im editing but the wifi here is not so good and keeps logging me out so the videos i have edited wont go up until next week,maybe saturday.We're released that.For anyone that is interested,the study is for $3,150 and its at the dallas clinic.If you do one tell them i sent you! I had a bit of a hard time getting my blood drawn earlier and that honestly sucked,but they finally listened to me and we got it after a while.

MY DRAMA:Laura changed her username to 'boss lady'

If your just tuning in,a few weeks ago i wrote a post about a woman named Ovetta who i haven't seen or spoken to in 10+ years,i did't say about who she was or what happened.A week later i receive a message on youtube from her daughter.Mind you all not only have i not seen her mother since i was a kid,but i have never met this daughter only heard of her,and talked on the phone once.I was living in nebraska at the time and she has always been in some part of new york.

this is what she wrote

at first i thought she was a viewer that was upset about me talking about my mo because i have gotten a couple comments like that,so i misread it.I also NEVER THOUGHT that a woman in her 30's that has never met me and i hasn't spoken to since i was 11? message me in general a week after talking about her mother.What does that say about her?I have gone on with my life,and she is still checking for me a decade + later.How?Her mom would show up at my school uninvited and one day the school had to ask her to leave.I had to act like i liked her before that.As soon as i made a facebook she messaged me saying her mom was an old friend of her dads and wouldnt say who she was.When i found who she was i simpy asked is this Ovetta daughter?she deleted her facebook.I gave her info i shouldn't have but i was 16 at the time and I didn't know her intentions.

here are pictures of our convo from 2009 when i first started a facebook at 16 to 2012

after some time it hit me who this anonymous person literally years later...and when she got all the info she needed from me she deleted me and now keeps up with all my social media but calls me a lonely loser??

so i made a post here  about how they have been stalking me and my family for years,which her mom has convinced her to do.This whole issue is because she allowed my dad to use her for years and because of this she mirrored her frustrations on us.She was honestly a monster.Me and my brother are still dealing with the trauma UNTIL THIS DAY. I did respond to her but when i blocked her I could not reply to her but she could still respond to me.So i unblocked her and i still couldnt respond.I was still receiving emails and cursed her out accordingly.She is extremely defensive and starts bring up things from my child hood to demean me.Then calls me a 'nobody with no friends'.

If im all these things why are you keeping such close tabs on me?I posted her links since i could not reply directed and im not sure what happened but she has all new user names since our encounter.Im going to look through my email to see if i can find her comments.

Reality shows im excited for the summer

So pretty much im watching bravo all summer....for the most part.

so they just finished filming the real housewives of new york's reunion and im sooo excited,i want to see new comer Jules stand up for herself to Bethenny like she did in last nights episode at the dinner.I didn't think i would like Dorinda,but she is growing on me,surprisingly her and Ramona's friendship is on the rocks due to her over sensitivity of peoples views of her friends realistic views of her relationship.So far Jules has the most interesting story line with her eating disorder and pending divorce.I would love to see her next season!As usual Carole is a snooze fest bully,and Sonja of course not sure why shes still on the show but im glad shes there.Ex room mate Luann is currently engaged after another world wind romance with a guy many of her friends have recently banged.Bethenny is dealing with fibroids and id staying true to her dramatic snappy attitude.

Ohh....the shahs of sunset.Where do i even begin?

ok so Mike who i was in love with and very surprised when he married Jessica,are now in the middle of a divorce that made news 6 months after being married.Mike allegedly cheated on  her and she has proof.Mj is dating a new yorker who her mom of course doesnt approve and her moms overbearing opinion is hindering her relationship.GG is dealing with chronic arthritis is coming to light and is seeking treatment for it and none of her cast mates believe the severity of it.Reza is happily married after surprising his finance with a wedding because wether he was ready or not didn't matter.Asa's butt is getting bigger by the season is just making money with her family (goals) and new comer i forgot his name is just hot and a bachelor.Typical.

Ill be very honest.This show is getting sleazier and more fake with every season .I barely watched.I've been catching it on demand.I don't like yung joc.

ok so mimi is dating a girl (big surprise),k michelle was there for a hot minute.Karly red (dating lyfe jenning and fucking scrapp deleon) can never like a guy who is available and is finally posing for playboy now that no one is checking for playboy.Joseline is playing tricks on everyone that don't work and they're all unbothered.Stevie j exposes their fake marriage after being upset at seeing jos with rick ross which is clearly a fake plot.  I literally just googled 'bubble gum song' to find this person and jason derulo popped up then some other people,then her but Rasheeda is running a clothing store with family and her fake plot cheating husband's daughter is trying to her rap career off the ground.Tommie,Scrapp,and Tiarra love triange saga continues and tiarra seems to move on but with an ugly dude named KD,if she wanted Scrapp to feel secure that shes not going anywhere this dude is the one to do it.Kd has a stripper doctor miami assembly line body and im sure they're apartment where they film and relationship is fake but we'll go with it.Back to tommie.Her body is nice.Not sure if its real at this point lol but shes getting into unnecessary fights left and right for a nigga that is not worth it.It's honestly sad to see.Scrapp is going to prison for 5 years for a small amount of weed because of course the judge did not care thats its wasting tax payers money.Im not sure why joc is still on the show and lil scrappy is irrelevant as ever along with bambi and theres also a transgender D. Smith who can never get her point across correctly. I thought she was going to bring some fresh air to the show but fell flat.she came with a friend Betty idol...Who got into an avoidable fight with wacka flocka's wife tammy who i lost respect for after shaking her boobs at d smith as a jab that she'll never be a woman.Boobs dont make the woman dumbass.Tammy and wocka are working on their marriage....Theres too many people for a show to be this lifeless.

The OC is messy as ever and i would like people to stand up for Shannon more and just be real i general.I still really don't like Tamra and her tight mouth,but hey,what are we gonna do?lol.Im also excited for Kelly and her interesting story with her tried to divorce husband,he is overly controlling as she admitted and i like that hes older so people would think he's her sugar daddy,but she's really been the bread winner.I know her and Meghan's friendship is really just a surface hi and bye because Meghan didn't know something as simple as Kelly being married to a man she tried to divorce,i mean come on,so obvious.I mean,i know the show has a history of bringing on women who act they were best friends before and would be a good fit,but this match up was just lazy.Also Meghan is trying for a baby with her former baseball pro husband.I cannot wait for Heather's home to be finished.Soooo many details and expensive cabinets.Also Vicky the o.g. is trying to come to terms with her ex leaving her due to the women on the show and get back into good graces with the other women even bringing in old faces like Jeana in the opening episode.

Last but not least,Southern Charm.Although the season is over,I still feel the same as i did last season.I love naive Kathryn and hate Landon.When will she leave the show?Seriously.The show is a complete contradictory.They really try these outdated tactics like 'slut shaming' Kathryn for having a child out of wedlock twice (like anyone cares about that anymore) with Thomas.When they should really be looking at a man who is in his 50's having a mid life crisis leading a young girl on and the world into thinking he's really about that dad,husband,settled down life.Just stop.The reunion was hard to watch seeing that as usual craig was the only person to have Kathryn's back while her lame ex sat back and watched.Cameron is a complete snooze fest grasping for some sort of story line.While Shep is still living off of his forever inheritance,he did open a bar,that always empty.Whitney is wack and his mom is still full of herself.which she shouldnt be.Craig still hasn't taken the bar but is in a commited relationship with an old acquaintance,but doesn't really have steady work besides the show.

saturday weigh in

So im at 190 today which was the goal,we had a large dinner late last night and i gave into my peppermint cravings....But today im filling up on water because of course i have a repeat at stupid covance because they didnt have there shit together last time i was there.So i go in on monday morning and check in is on wednesday so ill be leaving for dallas tomorrow evening.

I knew i should have taken my avocados with me when i left,i didnt want them to get smushed while traveling.The doctor wants me to do a urine and blood repeat.

I DID my last move in texas today!plus weigh in

I moved in with another youtuber crazy enough!I'm back to posting like crazy because she has fast wifi so i had 4 edited videos up so im posting 2 today and 2 tomorrow,until i catch up,but now it's back to filming.BUTTT even bigger news....i weighed in at 189 today!!!! The moving and light eating that i did this morning really did it.I can not believe how on track i am.