A few things to remember when your discouraged/stressed

If you honestly can't do anything  about it.stop worrying.let it go,and let it be.

For example a bill that due or past due.

You don't have enough money to even make a partial payment,no one will lend or give it to you,your not getting paid this week and you can't get a loan.

let go,and let it be.Worrying will not pay your bills.I repeat.Worrying will not pay your bills.Only your actual actions toward paying it will.

There is a huge difference between ignoring the severity of the situation and letting go.

Sometimes i get discouraged,mainly when something is becoming redundant or if i'm around negative people.

One way i steer around it is remembering my goals that are set.I also understand that people will find any reason to dislike you and keep it that way.That them.You are you.

Just because things aren't going your way doesn't mean to lose hope,just because it seems like things never go your way,doesn't mean to lose hope.

Find something that motivates you,find something that makes you happy not temporarily,and keep going.Keep your eyes and mind open to many things.Something can come out of nowhere and change your life and you have been walking past it all along.

My Dads ex fling and her family continue to stalk us.

Its been 10+ years since since i've seen this woman (Ovetta Bell) But her and her family still continue to stalk.They know we want nothing to do with them.Why stalk?Boring/uneventful people like us? Well. She has done serious damage and forever has been trying to cover her tracks due to guilt.My dad has covered the wrong she has done,my mom with her ignorance had a soft spot for even over her own children.She's runs every time she feels as though things are coming to light.I've seen her in her car watching and showing up at random places we just so happened to be at.Being young i was so happy to be away from my dad's,i would ignore any confrontation and close my eyes tight hoping she would be gone by the time i opened them.Sometimes she would be closer and i would close them again,tighter this time.I would open my eyes and she was gone.I worried for the other children that would be in her care.Hoping they weren't scared.Hoping they had backbone,something i lacked back then.Im different now.I know what people are capable of,and i am aware that just because we have history or that i'm vulnerable,i won't be spared harm.

Ovetta D. Bell

your daughter wrote me 30 minutes ago,(i've blocked her since then) im guessing it was Laura
(her google plus)https://plus.google.com/103423419523856767203/posts
(her youtube) https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCBk5sZN__W0nJeCZRh8x8Uw
(her facebook) https://www.facebook.com/lora.elzergermain?fref=ts

I posted that blog on june 9th,today is the 19th.i haven't heard 

from her in 10+ years,and social media has obviously changed.They're still watching 

me and my family.

you know who you are 

you know what you've done

and WE know why your hiding

selfies with my mom

This was sooo last minute after filming,but they're special because she is taking them.Lets just say there are more out takes than takes lol.It only took 5 minutes literally and it's hard sometimes to catch her in the mood to do them!She lives in the country and there are so many bugs and i forgot to spray and got bit.Oh well here goes an allergy pil

feeling defeated

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ovetta d. bell

you know who you are.


you know what you've done.


we know why your hiding.

give me strength.

This week has proven difficult in ways i can't even speak of right now.I don't and don't want to understand people and their logic.Family specifically.I have a sorry excuse for an oldest brother and everyone has terrible communication.Why did my mom have so many kids? Why am i put with this family?Why?They say everything happens for a reason but these people are so...just i can't.


 I had an hour long conversation with one of my older brothers where for once he didn't dominate it all they way,i could tell he wanted to really badly.He's crazy.Why?he records conversations,lies,uses people,is controlling,only gravitates toward negativity,and hates women.Should i go on?