my 800 calorie a day diet

breakfast
smoothie

ingredients/parts
2 bananas (140 calories)
8 strawberries (40 calories)
pineapple (100 calories)

dinner/lunch ill be having
guacamole

ingredients/parts
1 1/2 avocado (350 calories)
a piece of garlic (15 calories)
1 roma tomato (40 calories)
1 pack of seasoning (70)
24 chips (240 calories)

water,and i had a soda :( i was 150 calories.....

TOTAL 1,145 CALORIES for the day i failed lol

lets lose weight together!... #goals

Im really serious about losing 30 to 40 pounds by September (im 195 now) because im going to New York (i need any type of motivation)for the first time!Brooklyn to be exact for generation beauty and boy am i excited,i've never been there and ill be traveling with my friend Chevy from youtube.So heres the goal.Im going to try by losing 3-4 pounds weekly.With a weekly sunday weigh in.With a weekly post every sunday.A few things that might set me back are a study that i may be doing in a couple weeks, and when im in there i cant work out,but i don't eat the food there really and everything is controlled,and when we get to new york,i may pig out.Other than that, im good.


Sunday 7/10  i weight 195

wednesday 7/13 goal is 193 (actual weigh in #193)

goal for saturday july 16 is 190



Sunday 17 i should weigh in at 190 (actual #)

wednesday 7/20 goal is 188

saturday  7/23 goal is 186



Sunday 7/24 i should weigh in at 186

wednesday 7-27 goal is 184

saturday 7/30 goal is 182


sunday 7/31 i should weigh in at 182

wednesday 8/3 goal is 180

saturday 8/6 goal is 178


sunday 8/7 i should weigh in at 178

wednesday 8/10  goal is 176

saturday 8/13 goal is 174


sunday 8/14 i should weigh in at 174

wednesday 8/17 goal is 172

saturday 8/20 goal is 170


sunday 8/21 i should weigh in at 170

wednesday 8/24 goal is 168

saturday 8/27 goal is 166


sunday 8/28 i should weigh in at 166

wednesday 8/31 goal is 164

saturday  9/3 goal is 162


sunday 9/4 i should weigh in at 162

wednesday 9/7 goal is 160

saturday 9/10 goal is 158


sunday 9/11 i should weigh in at 158

wednesday 9/14 goal is 156

saturday 9/17 goal is 154

                                                                        LETS DO THIS!!

black owned banks list

I was on instagram this morning and saw a post by Solange about black owned banks.Im not saying it will be easier to get approved here,but there is a reason we need one.People have an issue with things starting off with the word "black' or 'negro' because they feel it separates us from others or it's offensive and racist.It's not.Why? Well the U.S. is already white so thats why there are businesses that start with a minority title.Example, in Houston it's common to see 'Latino' or ''Mexican' in the beginning of a title like it's necessary to see 'BET' black entertainment television.People will say well why don't we see White entertainment television?We don't need it because it's everywhere.IT HAS BEEN MADE THE NORM THROUGH FORCE.I mean look at youtube they have to make 'YOUTUBE BLACK' because they were being over looked

With all of this being said a black owned bank and it being known as that is important.

here is the list,there are 21 and also there are business 'starters' to help and supports that goes right back into the community.We need to keep our business with ourselves like other minority races do.

http://saintheron.com/news/there-are-over-21-black-owned-banks-in-the-u-s/


#blacklivesdomatter

A few things to remember when your discouraged/stressed

If you honestly can't do anything  about it.stop worrying.let it go,and let it be.

For example a bill that due or past due.

You don't have enough money to even make a partial payment,no one will lend or give it to you,your not getting paid this week and you can't get a loan.

let go,and let it be.Worrying will not pay your bills.I repeat.Worrying will not pay your bills.Only your actual actions toward paying it will.

There is a huge difference between ignoring the severity of the situation and letting go.

Sometimes i get discouraged,mainly when something is becoming redundant or if i'm around negative people.

One way i steer around it is remembering my goals that are set.I also understand that people will find any reason to dislike you and keep it that way.That them.You are you.

Just because things aren't going your way doesn't mean to lose hope,just because it seems like things never go your way,doesn't mean to lose hope.

Find something that motivates you,find something that makes you happy not temporarily,and keep going.Keep your eyes and mind open to many things.Something can come out of nowhere and change your life and you have been walking past it all along.

My Dads ex fling and her family continue to stalk us.

Its been 10+ years since since i've seen this woman (Ovetta Bell) But her and her family still continue to stalk.They know we want nothing to do with them.Why stalk?Boring/uneventful people like us? Well. She has done serious damage and forever has been trying to cover her tracks due to guilt.My dad has covered the wrong she has done,my mom with her ignorance had a soft spot for even over her own children.She's runs every time she feels as though things are coming to light.I've seen her in her car watching and showing up at random places we just so happened to be at.Being young i was so happy to be away from my dad's,i would ignore any confrontation and close my eyes tight hoping she would be gone by the time i opened them.Sometimes she would be closer and i would close them again,tighter this time.I would open my eyes and she was gone.I worried for the other children that would be in her care.Hoping they weren't scared.Hoping they had backbone,something i lacked back then.Im different now.I know what people are capable of,and i am aware that just because we have history or that i'm vulnerable,i won't be spared harm.

Ovetta D. Bell

your daughter wrote me 30 minutes ago,(i've blocked her since then) im guessing it was Laura
(her google plus)https://plus.google.com/103423419523856767203/posts
(her youtube) https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCBk5sZN__W0nJeCZRh8x8Uw
(her facebook) https://www.facebook.com/lora.elzergermain?fref=ts

I posted that blog on june 9th,today is the 19th.i haven't heard 

from her in 10+ years,and social media has obviously changed.They're still watching 

me and my family.

you know who you are 

you know what you've done

and WE know why your hiding

selfies with my mom

This was sooo last minute after filming,but they're special because she is taking them.Lets just say there are more out takes than takes lol.It only took 5 minutes literally and it's hard sometimes to catch her in the mood to do them!She lives in the country and there are so many bugs and i forgot to spray and got bit.Oh well here goes an allergy pil

feeling defeated

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ovetta d. bell

you know who you are.


you know what you've done.


we know why your hiding.