wont be posting much this week

Im sooo sick lol.I haven't been this way in years.I went the entire winter ok and barely wearing anything and i wasn't sick at all.Hopefully i'll be up and ok by thursday

people think posting a mug shot is shameful to me??

Think about it.Im the girl who uses her real name and not a fake moniker on youtube like everyone else pretty much.Im the girl who's first vlogs were of me going to the court house,Im the girl who is not afraid to talk about sex work or sugar daddies,Im the girl who has no shame in chronicling her abortion for thousands to know and understand the after affects or whatever.So going to jail and having a mug shot isn't serious to me.I was going to talk about it a couple months when the dismiss was final but i had to move due to my crazy room mate.Now that people think thats a mechanism to bring me down,i think i will wait a bit longer.Or until i'm ready to start renovating the new pad lol.I mean lets be real here.There are girls glamorizing 'going to jail' and 'getting kidnapped' with ridiculous thumbnails for views.Why would i not partake in something like that when it has actually happened to me??Yall are really going to have to come harder than that. #next

Social Anxiety is a bitch.

I have no idea,whats going on with me,but i think i've gotten it figured out.When ever Im out in large crowd i get really uncomfortable.So uncomfortable that i get sad and overwhelmed it actually affects my breathing.Shopping typically makes me really happy,well online shopping.But large crowds make me ancy and impatient, i want people to walk faster,i get annoyed when people when kids run into me,or seeing kids who are walking in front of me stop literally to do something that they think is funny just for laughs that disrupts me walking to my destination.Typical things like that don't really bother people i guess?I also have to take into account that sometimes i go on weekends (bad idea) and i will be there for 4 or 5 hours which for me is just a bad combination.I could never out my finger on it,but a few subscribers called it anxiety and they have the same issue.Some other people suggested natural supplements so im going to look into it.I've never really been a fan of taking things to control the way i feel or to stop 'pain' or what have you,i don't even have an addictive personality.Im just bad with keeping up with things like that and don't want to become dependent on something like that.well see how this goes

a recap of my crazy week

last week on thursday my phone broke so i had to get another one,great.I thought i couldn't get insurance to get another because something was actually wrong with my motherboard and it was appearing black.

friday i got a temporary android phone

fast forward to today i just got my phone and life felt so weird with out it.

still moving to L.A.??

I won't even lie.My life literally changes completely every 30 days and i just go with it. So with that being said,im still moving to LA but i wont be next month like i wanted to.I ended up showing up pregnant to a screening that was paying $3,500 that i otherwise would have gotten into but thats ok.Things happen.I still have my sights set on going there but i also have seen potential in Texas and i've been doing a lot research and im actually excited about my new journey.The reason i wanted to move to move out of texas is because i had no passion for what i was doing here,i hated to doing hair and i felt like i was going no where with it because well,the passion was gone.

Now i'll be doing youtube full time and i actually like it.See what a difference a year makes??Im not pregnant anymore and am finally done with the study,so im in the process of making a serious purchase and im half way there.Anyway i'll update as time goes on.I just edited 5 videos so im going to go upload them now im a month behind on vlogs and haven't uploaded in over a week.xo